Yet it so definately felt like Monday. I should be happy that the week is over and my weekend is opening before me, but I'm not because of the way today has gone from about 12 pm on. *sigh* I feel bad about my reaction, but it was the straw that broke the camel's back tonight. I'm also very upset that the situation that triggered it keeps coming up, over and over and over again. I do not like having my integrity questioned, especially on a continuing basis; it indicates a total lack of trust in me or the relationship, and I don't have time for that. I was made to dance and continually "prove" my loyalty in a past relationship, and I've grown weary of it... I'm tired of emotional abuse and mind games of any type in my relationships, and I will not hesitate to walk away from what otherwise seems to be a wonderful relationship if I have to put up with it any more.
I didn't need this. Can I go back to 10am and start over again?
.o.o.o.o.
9:34pm: I didn't quite get a do-over, but I did get a chance to speak my piece and do my share of listening -- something I hope I did at least a passable job at.
I think things are mostly smoothed over, and that's a relief. The part that upsets me is we had to take some very bumpy, unpleasant roads to get there from here. With luck it hasn't damaged things permanently.
Tensions are simply running too high on all fronts in the Pack these days.
