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Another day with Jazz
We fell asleep around 2 this morning, with lots of waking up throughout the night. And, this morning, Jazz is still here with us. [personal profile] lady_curmudgeon and I couldn't be more glad - even if it sometimes feels as if we've exchanged another day of having her with us for another day of dread about when she'll be taken from us. Her eating and bathroom habits, paired with rapid breathing, continue to show that things are very much not right. But there's not really anything we can do but keep watching for signs of distress or pain. Other than those three things she seems alert today, and has already given us loving time in bed, and is moving a bit from place to place in the house.

I can't help but feel like we're prolonging the inevitable, but that's a rather silly belief a we aren't taking extraordinary measures such as force-feeding. It's only her normal schedule of meds and us offering food to her in an attempt to get her to eat. So I think as long as she wants to stay with us, she will. I'm still hoping she'll improve and gain back a bit more of her old self. I miss her carrying her sparkle balls into the hallway, the office or onto the bed. I miss her "Singing the Song of Her People" when she is carrying sparkle balls around. I miss the way she pushes her nose insistently into my hand for petting... so if I saw any of those behaviors come back, I'd be most relieved.

Thank you for all the good wishes and prayers to those who may have seen this last night. We continue to appreciate them as we look forward with worry and a spark of hope to the rest of the week.

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stryck From: stryck Date: September 2nd, 2013 07:35 pm (UTC) (Link)
*sends hugs*
chefmongoose From: chefmongoose Date: September 3rd, 2013 04:32 am (UTC) (Link)
*snugs you gently* I hope Jazz shall be all right. If not, this was a good day with her, to treasure.
arphalia From: arphalia Date: September 3rd, 2013 11:53 am (UTC) (Link)
Much love to you all as the vigil continues. It does sound like the time is near but also kind of seems like she's giving a bit of time for the humans who love her to prepare. I don't like putting too much into it but, can't help but the desire to see it that way. I know with her age, you two were aware the day was coming, but I'm thinking more of in-the-now of it. *hugs*

Glad you're getting the time. Whenever the time comes, be it soon, or later on down the road, may it be gentle and peaceful.
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