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Paint It Black
Living the American dream one heartbreaking piece at a time
I'm writing a lot about dreams and sleep these days
I don't know if this is because sleep and my overly vivid dreams are what I feel comfortable writing about when compared to other things, or what. I guess it doesn't matter, because at least I'm writing here again.

Last night was a ripe example of "Generic Armchair Dream Interpretation 101." First I dreamt about work, which was mostly my subconscious trying to process through some of yesterday's events and the anxiety and uncertainty I felt around it. After processing through it by dreaming about the office, my subconscious decided to show it off in full Technicolor glory by changing to a different dream entirely.

In the second dream I was back at high school. Before you ask, yes, I was wearing pants. I'm not sure if I was appropriately aged, or if I was my current age. All I recall is wandering through my old high school in a sort of aimless manner. I knew that I needed to be in a class, but I wasn't sure which one. I also couldn't remember the last time I'd attended the class, so maybe I was already really far behind! I started worrying about where I needed to be, what class I was late for, where my locker was... so I booked it to the office and stood in line. When finally it was my turn to be helped I ended up quoting a current-day internet meme to the office administrator as some sort of lame response to her greeting, then asked for a copy of my transcript... and my current course enrollment and schedule.

As I said, it doesn't take a highly-trained professional to see that the high school dream was all about uncertainty and looking for my "place" in my current environment. You wouldn't even need any real context of the dream before, you could just ask one or two basic questions about my day/week/month at work or at home and figure out that I'm struggling to figure out where I fit in... and feeling more than a little bit that I don't have a good grasp of everything that's going on, that I don't have control of my situation.

In completely not-dream-related and uninteresting news, it snowed, then it melted. This is the second winter where there's been negligible accumulation by mid-February. I fear we are in for another long, dry and hot summer. What happened to the snow days and blizzards of my youth in Minnesota? Was it just Minnesota? I find it difficult to believe that Illinois in the 80s didn't get blizzards and regularly have snow days.

As the winter winds litter London with lonely hearts

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captain18 From: captain18 Date: February 10th, 2013 02:25 pm (UTC) (Link)
Growing up in the '80s, we often used more than half the alloted snow days each year. During recess in grade school, we regularly built forts that lasted for a month.

I always find it interesting that the state colleges in NY still close 2-3 days a year these days. In my four years at NIU they closed exactly once, when it was so cold that the campus busses wouldn't start.
tarinfirepelt From: tarinfirepelt Date: February 10th, 2013 09:37 pm (UTC) (Link)
Strange as hell. I have had nearly that exact same dream. Wandering around in High school realizing I have finals and have skipped the entire class or some crazy crap like that and have no earthly clue what is going on, or where my classes are at all. Its been reoccurring a lot lately and is starting to become quite annoying.

I like your interpretation of the situation spawning the dream. That fits me exactly. Good thing about the crappy life situation it is its driven me back to church, which I have been backsliding in again, lately.

Weather is weird for me too. Albuquerque received hardly any snow this year, but when I was in the Navajo Nation we had 4 nasty snow events. Hopefully the AZ snow continued up to CO or we are going to be in some serious water issues again this year. The state is probably going to burn down again already due to the lack of rain. Come on snow melt.
asetwoman From: asetwoman Date: February 11th, 2013 02:26 am (UTC) (Link)
We certainly did have "snow days", but Chicagoans think they've failed or something if they actually close things, so they almost never do it. This winter and last have been very very mild.
frostyw From: frostyw Date: February 11th, 2013 05:49 pm (UTC) (Link)
I think we got your snow. >_> We haven't had such a storm in eight years, so I guess we were due.
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