Thus far I have:
- Watched two episodes of "Batman Beyond"
- Made dinner for myself
- Unpacked the new DVDs I bought (I ordered a batch of five last Thursday, and three of them arrived today. The box I got in contained the second volume of the "Family Guy" boxed set, the cheesy 80s sci-fi flick "Critters" and the classic "Blues Brothers." I expect that my new copy of "Animal House" will arrive tomorrow, since it was backordered and just shipped this morning. Naturally the most expensive part of the purchase, and the one I want to see the most, has yet to arrive from the distribution warehouse. I want my boxed set of the "Nightmare on Elm Street" series! I want to see Freddy! I want blood, special effects and gore!)
- Cataloged the DVDs and added them into my database system
- Puttered around online
I have made no headway on the paperwork that I have to get done for the office. For example, the self-appraisal for my review is sitting open in Word right now. The cursor is blinking in the upper left-hand corner and the vast empty white space is mocking me. Right now I lack the motivation to justify my existence to the world as a whole, much less to a small-minded middle-manager who doesn't understand what it is that I actually do for 8 (or 10, or 14) hours a day when I'm at my desk. When I take into account the recent turn of events at the office I feel even less motivated to go through this routine -- it isn't that I fear for my job, oh no. I fear for my employer. I can say in all honesty that I think in another four year's we are going to hit absolute rock bottom. We have the Pied Piper of Hamlin as our CIO and he's leading all the rats right into our company, letting them chew apart everything that we've so carefully built over the last six years. It's depressing and thoroughly demotivating.
So yeah, I don't want to work on my review, because it seems like a complete exercise in masturbation. Since I don't want to work on the review I should be working on the documentation that's due on the 25th... but I'm not doing that either. I honestly think I'm going to let it slide until tomorrow night, and see if I can't get a vast majority of it done Friday night and during the day on Saturday. What I don't get done over the weekend I can probably take care of each night after I get home from training. Procrastination, thy name is Feren.
Yesterday was a good day, as you may have gathered from this entry. I'm still pondering over the last part of it -- how will I ever explain my feelings, and thank the special lady who makes me feel that way? I don't know. In the evening I grabbed
I just found out that
I tried to study but was often interrupted