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Can't sleep - nostalgia will eat me. - Paint It Black
Living the American dream one heartbreaking piece at a time
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Can't sleep - nostalgia will eat me.
I'm feeling unable to sleep. I'm spending time online and reading old entries on DW/LJ. The nostalgia is overwhelming. "All the feels," as the kids say these days, while I go into 2013 and even deeper into the past. Days and events I'd forgotten, emotions that were so raw when I wrote about them... they'd gone absent, but this stirs them all back up.

I guess it's good, because it means I can still feel. Some of these things make me smile and nod. Overall, however, it may not be the ideal time for me to be doing this because of how I am struggling with grief and loss. In any case, I console myself with the realization that at least I still remember, and those memories validate me as a person and keep the past alive.

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arphalia From: arphalia Date: February 27th, 2015 08:50 am (UTC) (Link)
Might not be an ideal time, but I think its natural enough to want to reflect during grief. Been doing it a bit myself in my own way.
titanic From: titanic Date: March 1st, 2015 05:40 pm (UTC) (Link)
My Livejournal goes back over a decade - I have no such continuity in any other aspect of my life. Sometimes reading the old entries is like reading a historical account of someone elses life - like I wasn't even there, the world I live in now being so different.
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